Sunday 20 February 2011

Back To Work Tomorrow

My back is quite a bit better now, it isn't anywhere near as painful as it was when it first went - I still have to be careful getting up and down stairs, and when I first get up it is still painful, but I am okay to go back to work now so will be going in tomorrow. Never thought I would ever say this, but I'll be glad - I was sooo bored last week!

I should be okay to actually cook proper food as well, last week I was living off microwave dinners, takeaways, and sandwiches, and I can't half feel the difference... even though I don't have the heathiest diet in the world, I do at least usually eat a lot of fruit and veg. But with not being able to get out and buy the stuff, I haven't had any. As a result I'm lethargic, headachey, and feel run down - but I can get back to normal tomorrow and have got some kiwi fruit and strawberries to take to work with me. I am gonna try and get back on the healthy eating thing as well, I lost about 10 pounds before xmas just by cutting out fatty/sugary and processed food and felt a lot better for it. If I can do the same again, that should help a bit.

My sleep patterns should sort themselves out too, I am naturally nocturnal and with having a week off I have fallen into the habit of staying up later and sleeping in longer. I'm still only sleeping the same amount of time, but much later on. So getting up at 6am tomorrow will be a shock to the system! I'm on flexible hours, so could go in later if I wanted, but working a compressed week means I do four long days instead of five regular ones, so I would still need to be in by 9am. If my building was open 24 hours, I would happily work through the night instead - I used to work 10pm til 6am at one job many years ago and loved it. Ah well, I'm sure by the end of the week I will be used to getting up early again!

Good thing I have plenty of coffee to keep me going til then lol

Friday 18 February 2011

Facebook Friends

After reading and commenting on Stormy's blog post about facebook friends, I thought I should maybe take a proper look through mine and see who was really in there... hey, I'm bored and have a spare hour!

There are currently 151 names on my list, a couple of those are duplicates and four of them are friends pets, so probably around 144 actual people. I commented on Stormy's blog that I knew everyone on my list, I don't tend to go adding people just to bump up my numbers, and I also commented that they were mostly pagans with a few school / college / work friends as well.

So with nothing better to do, I went and counted them all up... some people could be either pagan friends or work friends, some could be school or work, but I've put them where they seemed most suited, or where I first met them.

Turns out I have 75 friends who are pagans based in the North West, who I have met while playing on the local pagan scene, so thats just over half the list already. A further 20 are pagans I have come across elsewhere, there are a fair few from UKPagan and other online sites, and the rest are mostly speakers we have had at PaganCon but who don't live locally.

Of the rest, there are 23 work mates (current and past), 7 school friends and 2 college friends. This surprised me, I didn't think I had so many work people on my friends list... nothing wrong with that of course, and they are all people I'm happy to talk to, but 23 seems like a lot. Especially when I compare it with only two friends from college, although to be fair to them both, they were the two people I spent the majority of my time with in my second year, so if I could have only picked two I would have chosen them anyway.

This leaves 17 people left over, including an old flatmate, a girl I used to go to Byron's and get wrecked with fairly regularly, two of the Saw Doctors (I have met them many times too, so they are eligible for being on my list!), some old friends I don't see any more for one reason and another, an ex-boyfriend (one of only two on my list, I had all the others shipped off to a remote island in the mid-Atlantic where they can think about what they did wrong), and a couple of random people who I may have added in my early facebook days but didn't really know... but I've kept them on cos I liked them :-)

I try and use facebook as a way of keeping in touch with everyone, in different ways depending who they are. There are some people I send regular messages to, some I post bits of trivia and comments on their walls, some I just play farmville with, and some I hardly speak to at all, but it is nice to see how they're doing. There isn't anyone on my list that I wouldn't be genuinely pleased to see if I bumped into them back in the real world, which incidentally is how I vet my friends requests lol

Falling Out

So today I haven't done very much, my back isn't as painful as it was so I was able to venture out to the co-op and stock up on the essentials... cigarettes, cat food, maltesers, the stuff I can't do without :-) Then I spent most of the day lazing on the couch with the cats, watching stuff I'd recorded, including Goodfellas, House, American Dad and Due South.

A very ordinary day then, except for one thing... today is my brother's birthday, so he has been on my mind all day.

About 14 months ago now, xmas before last, there was some kind of misunderstanding or something was taken the wrong way, I'm not 100% sure what happened, but the result is that he does not speak to my parents or myself any more. It seems to have got blown out of all proportion, I used to see families on TV shows who had fallen out for decades over something seemingly trivial, and wonder how on earth that could happen.

Well, now I know. And while over the last year I have gradually come to accept that he does not want any contact with us, and in all probability he never will, it still hurts and I still find myself thinking about him on days like today and wondering how he is doing, and hoping that he will eventually want to get back in touch. He has recently removed me from his facebook list, so I guess it won't happen any time soon.

He is getting married soon, we think some time in April although we aren't sure. I really think he will end up regretting it if he doesn't have his family there to see him get married, but it is his choice at the end of the day. I just hope that he has a happy life, and I only want good things for him.

I just wish I understood what has driven him to do it, he must have his reasons but for the life of me I don't get it.

Thursday 17 February 2011

Woohooo for the little things!

Reading back over this blog, it seems I do a fair old bit of whingeing... I tend to post when I'm upset about something, or am down in the dumps. Looking over various social websites it seems I'm not alone, there is a lot of complaining going on. I have a theory that we do it because it makes us feel better to vent our frustrations, also on those sites where there is interaction you can often get a sympathetic response which also helps.

But I feel like we might be in danger of coming across all doom and gloom, as if we only bother to communicate when we have something we want to whine about.

So in the interest of balance, here's some things that are good in my life - not big things, not necessarily the most exciting things, but stuff that just makes me feel good generally!

I have a wonderful group of friends who accept me for who I am, and are always there to support me when needed, and who I have some bloody good times with. There are some of them who I really don't know what I would do without them, and I am so pleased to have them in my life.

I have a full-time job that earns me enough money to keep the roof over my head, the food on the table (and the cats bellies), the occasional treat, and a trip away every now and again.

My parents are both loving and supportive, no matter what mad idea I come up with they always encourage me. I go and see them once a week, and enjoy spending time with them.

I have two beautiful big cats with sweet natures, who love a bit of fuss and attention.

My job allows me to work a compressed week, so I have a 3 day weekend.

I have my own home, with my own backyard to play at gardening in.

As well as all these things, I try as much as possible to take pleasure in the simple every day things... I don't need designer clothes, expensive jewellery, or state of the art technology to be happy, why would I need it?

Breaking open a new jar of coffee, is there any nicer smell than that? And that first cup to wake me up in the morning.

Listening to some of my favourite music, guaranteed to lift my mood.

A long hot bubble bath at the end of the day.

Clean fresh bed linen.

A sausage and fried egg barmcake with brown sauce.

Catching up on the weeks TV recordings while lazing on the couch.

Going for a swim and a steam room / jacuzzi with my best friend.

Baking some cakes, and then sharing them out at work or with friends.

A good find in a charity shop or car boot sale.

There are so many little things that can happen every day, I think we should all try and get as much enjoyment out of them as we deserve... incidentally, I have always found that things have a way of working out for me, I believe that luck follows positive people around and I have always been lucky.

I also seem to attract a lot of freebies and wins, we aren't talking anything spectacular here (I have yet to win the jackpot on the lottery!) but I do seem to get more than my fair share of free goodies... which I ALWAYS share with others, the Lush freebies I get sent every now and again get divided up among my friends, the four free extra ammolites from an ebay trader were shared with my mum and best friend, the extra bracelets that came with a bulk order were shared out, the money I won on the last Grand National paid for gig tickets for myself and a mate, and the £72 I won on the lottery went on a meal out for my parents. If something has come to me for nothing, then why hang on to it all myself - it has to be spread around, so everyone can enjoy it. Well, at least that's the way I see it.

So hopefully this post has gone some way towards making up for the complaining, my life is really doing just fine... I will make the effort to post more about the good things that happen, as well as the bad.

Wednesday 16 February 2011

Backache and Boredom

Okay, whose bloody idea was backache? One minute you're pootling around quite happily (or as happily as is possible at 6:30 am on a Monday morning) the next... something inside your lower back pings and suddenly you're paralysed with pain halfway down the stairs in total darkness. Moving a single muscle causes the kind of ridiculous pain that makes you whine at such a high pitch that it causes dogs in the next street to sit bolt upright in surprise, and awakens your neighbours.

Today is Wednesday, and it's still no better... what really annoys me is that the medical advice when you have cricked your back is to keep moving around! Seriously, that has to be a wind up! At the moment I am only comfortable in three positions... lying flat on my back, sitting up straight, or standing with my back against a wall. And these positions are only comfortable as long as I remain still, movement of any kind is painful and unpleasant, and makes me whimper and be bad tempered.

So I've not been to work, which is bad for several reasons... I won't get paid, I will be in trouble when I get back for having 3 absences in a year, and I'm bored witless. Unlike being off sick with a proper illness, say flu, I'm not actually feeling ill - but I can't get anywhere or do anything, so I'm stuck inside with daytime TV for company. There is only so much Jeremy Kyle a sane person can take, thank the Gods for 'Due South' which is one of the best things on telly at the moment, and has been thoughtfully placed in the lunchtime viewing schedule most weekdays - I'm sure for my benefit lol!

I've been reading a lot, I finished 'The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo' which was a slow starter but turned out to be actually quite good, and I look forward to reading the other two books soon. I re-read 'Nineteen EightyFour' for about the 20th time, never get tired of that, and am now working my way through the Philip K Dick short stories again. But I felt like it was time I bought some new books, I have loads and loads and loads of books, but I have read them all - often over and over again, so some new stuff would be welcome at this point. So I went on Amazon and treated myself, I bought some HG Wells (The Time Machine, The Invisible Man and War of The Worlds), 'Brave New World' by Aldous Huxley, 'Under The Dome' by Stephen King, and a box set of Sookie Stackhouse novels.

I was a bit wary of buying those, but at £24 for 10 books, I thought they were worth a punt. The whole vampire thing I find either very very good, or very very bad, and the trend towards the Twilight bollocks around at the moment is enough to make me boak... I can't stand that whole tweeny, emo, wannabe goth, trying to hard to be sexy, bullshit that you find in things like Vampire Diaries or Twilight. But on the other hand, True Blood is fantastic so the books I've ordered should be okay too. The best vampire around at the moment is still Mitchell from 'Being Human' though :-)

They should arrive tomorrow, so I will make sure I'm downstairs at a reasonable time, and hope the postman is patient enough to wait while I shuffle painfully to the door, lol... he'd better! With any luck I may even make it as far as the corner shop, I am down to my last 3 cigarettes and have run out of cat food and milk. Fortunately, I'm trying to cut down on the fags otherwise I would have run out days ago... I'm using one of those electronic cigarettes which I am quite taken with, and although I haven't stopped smoking all together, I am only smoking about a third of what I was before. I'm hoping to have stopped completely before too long, and then I can put the money towards something else.

Like a scooter! I have a notion for a Vespa, so am weighing up my options... the CBT will be around £80 and should only take a day (assuming I pass of course, lol) then I can get a small bike and ride around on L plates for up to 2 years before having to pass the bike test. The two choices I'm kicking around are: getting a little 50cc moped, which will be cheap and can get me to work and back, and around and about the town... most often to and from my friends and my parents place. But the other option of getting a 125cc scooter would allow me to get further afield, I could go out into the countryside on nice summer days, go get ice cream at Wallings Farm, go on little day trips and suchlike... but that might be out of my price range, a 125cc seems to be around the £1K mark for a reasonable second hander, whereas I can pick up a moped for a couple of hundred quid (which means I can buy one NOW). I do think though, that as the restrictions for riding either bike are the same for someone in my position (no full driving licence and over the age of 21) it would be silly to buy a moped when I could have a 125. And am I really gonna be completely satisfied with something that can only do 30mph? But do I want to spend the extra money getting a 125cc (along with higher insurance, petrol costs, tax, protective gear) if I'm not really gonna need the extra power very often? Hmmm, I need to give this more thought...

Tuesday 27 July 2010

Ouch!

Why is it that during the only week off I have had for months, does my body decide to get sick???

Okay, so I didn't exactly have loads of plans for the week but being curled up on the couch doubled over in pain, and racing to the bathroom every half hour or so, isn't really my idea of a nice relaxing time!

No idea what it is, I've had stomach pains since the weekend off and on, but they have been awful today - too low down to just be indigestion, and not violent enough to be food poisoning... but very painful all the same. At least they have been intermittent so I get a break from them every so often... I wonder if it's the codeine that's causing it, I have been taking that for the muscle pains I get anyway, and they have been fairly bad this week... I know codeine can mess with your belly, but I usually just feel a bit sick for an hour or so after taking them, nothing like this.

If it's no better tomorrow, I will have to bite the bullet and go see the doctor... hmmmph

In other news I have done a little bit of cleaning and tidying today, nothing like as much as I hoped to get done, but a little bit is better than nothing. And LJ stopped by to pick up the cat cage I borrowed, she and PJ have new rescue mogs stopping with them for a few days and they needed it back. I got Vince and Howard from them, it was the first time she had seen them since they were about 9 weeks old... two dobbing great big tom cats now lol, she said it was lovely to see them looking so healthy and well looked after. I still can't believe someone just left them in a bin at 6 weeks old, it never ceases to amaze me how badly some people treat animals... but thanks to people like PJ and LJ, and everyone else who devotes their time to looking after rescued animals, at least some of them end up in good homes being loved and looked after. I think they do an amazing job.

Hmmm, thats all for today i think - nothing of any interest happening here lol

Monday 26 July 2010

Week off

I'm off work for a week, no particular reason other than I just haven't had more than a couple of days off since March and I felt like a break. I may spend my time doing something productive, like cleaning and tidying the house, sorting through my wardrobe, or getting around to all those little jobs i keep meaning to do like painting the front door, defrosting the freezer and planting some stuff in the yard.

Or I may do bugger all except play runescape and watch telly - either way is good!

I got my cable TV sorted this weekend as well, it broke down earlier in the week and I was not impressed... rang Virgin, and they gave me an appointment for 6 days time. So the next day I decided that it was time to look at switching to another provider, all I'm hearing lately is people complaining about Virgin and it was expensive - I was paying about £62 for my TV package, broadband and phone line. So I rang them again and spoke to someone in customer services - they have cut the price of my package by almost half, they got me an engineer out 2 days faster, and put a credit on my bill so next month I don't have to pay anything at all... but i keep all the same stuff I have now.
And that is why I will recommend Virgin to others over Sky or BT... I had huge problems with Sky when I was with them years ago, they kept putting me on their premium packages without telling me, kept charging me for things I wasn't getting from them, and when i tried to leave they kept 'losing' any record of my having given them my notice. It was a nightmare, and since then I have always said that I would never ever go back to them. And although BT have a similar kind of package deal, it is expensive and according to the people I know who have it, it is very limited and very unreliable. But although Virgin do seem to be having some issues lately, they have always been good to me, and have always been helpful - as long as you talk to the customer service people specifically, not the ones in outsourced contact centres. They even paid for my ethernet cable when I got a new computer with a different operating system - cost all of £3, but it was the gesture that impressed me.

So today I went up to George to buy some new clothes... came back with yet another pair of black leggings, a couple of tops and a dress that looked amazing on the hanger but I'm not too sure about it now I have tried it on - I really love the design, so I may just try wearing it with different things... it is clingier than i thought it would be and it makes me look 9 months pregnant! But with a long cardigan (and not on the first day of my period when i'm at my most bloated and puffy) it might look better. I would have bought more, but there seems to be an awful lot of black and grey around at the moment... apart from the dress I bought and one of the tops, everything else was grey - I hate grey and wouldn't be seen dead in it! The only splashes of colour in the store were either vivid orange or sodding PINK which is even worse! It does annoy me, there were loads of other things that would have been lovely if they were in a different colour - I like bright colours, no grey, brown, beige or pink, and I get so bored wearing black all the time. Ah well, maybe next season colour will be fashionable again!

Tomorrow if it is dry enough I will paint the front door... I have bought the paint already, I want a red door. But if it is damp (which i suspect it will be) then I will try and make a start clearing out my wardrobe, I know I have loads of clothes that I would wear regularly, if I could only find them! They must be buried in there somewhere...